On the way to work yesterday I saw a bumper sticker that said "Remember What you Wanted to Be". I remember exactly what I wanted to be! I wanted to be a cut throat business woman. An attorney. One that eventually shifted into Politics and wrote speeches that mattered and made a differance. In my spare time I wanted to do modeling but only for products I loved and I wanted to be choosy. I wanted to Summer in the Hamptons and write books because people would be beating down my door to hear what I had to say next. I can't remember not wanting to be that! In Kidergarten when all the other little girls were playing mom, I was playing Principal. When my friend Danny and I played house, I worked while he stayed home with the kids.
I always kind of lived between reality and fiction in some odd in between world. I wanted a grand life full of grand things and even if it was just in my imagination it was there! I started college majoring in Criminal Justice and somewhere between the boys the bars and the books I decided Public Relations was more my cup of tea. Maybe I wasn't supposed to be a cut throat attorney but I would still make a differance. After several sales positions and a chance encounter with my current employer I landed in Human Resources and it fits.
What's missing from the bumper sticker is the flip side of the coin, remembering what I didn't want to be. I didn't want to be a mom or a wife, I didn't want to be ordinary!
What I've learned is that everything I didn't want is exactly what I want to be when I grow up! I love being a mom and a wife and that doesn't make me ordinary it makes me extrodinary!! Sure I'm still waiting for someone to knock on my door and ask me to write a book but I'd end up being too busy playing in the fantasy world of 2 little boys I know helping them figure out what they want to be!!
